When You Wake Up

by Rat Tally

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released November 22, 2019

Recorded by Max Grazier and Kenny Harmon

Mixed, Mastered and Produced by Max Grazier

Shoutout to all my friends and family. You know who you are I don't have to say it. I love you all so deeply it keeps me up at night.

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Rat Tally Los Angeles, California

Rat Tally (Addy Harris) Writing sad music for sad people. Or happy people. Or whoever.

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Track Name: Feel Something
I keep myself confined you already know why
I want to breathe and die all at the same time
And I've lost my head before
Clawing at my face in the mirror
I can't help it, it's never enough anymore

Cause I just want to feel something
Even If I end up spitting out blood
I told you you'd get used to it
I think I always knew you never would

Tell everyone I'm fine it's not like the last time
Ignoring all the signs cause I'll say anything to make it right
And I won't pretend like I don't know
That I'm down for the count and you've been keeping score
I'll say I can't help it, it's not like you didn't know before

But I just want to feel something
Even if I end up spitting out blood
I told you you'd get used to it
I think I always knew you never would
But I just want to feel something
Even if you end up spitting out blood
When you're finally done with it
I'll tell you I always knew one day you'd run
Track Name: Laugh It Off
Last night I watched the green line pass by
It was filled with faces of no one I seemed to recognize
And as I looked from the outside
Couldn't stop it I just cried
Cause it's not mine anymore
Thought I wouldn't want you anymore

Do you think that we'll just laugh it off?
Do you think that we could just laugh it off?

While you're out kissing anyone else I'm in another city
Reading bullshit websites on compatibility
As if the stars could help
With how desperately I want you around

Do you think that we'll just laugh it off?
Do you think that we could just laugh it off?
I wish I hadn't called it off
Do you wish we hadn't called it off?
Track Name: Rock of Gibraltar
What's the word for in between
The Mediterranean and the Atlantic sea?
Cause I feel like I was born in the cracks beneath
And I go back to drown there every few weeks
I'll sit in the salt beds until the waves decide where to take me

Keep the car door unlocked for me
So I can roll out before anyone turns the keys
Cause every time I pass water I wanna jump straight in
Hoping I'll find you at the bottom
If I just keep sinking
Track Name: Swarming
I'm so fucking lonely
I stay at yours til five again
Cause til the sun comes up I just can't be
Alone with myself
And while the whole world is sleeping
Between my ears you've been swarming
You don't know it now but when I see your smile
I take off running

And the worst part is
The worst part is
That the best part ends

We make our rounds to the courtyard
Like it's another country
Maybe that's where I settled it
Every mistake I'm currently making
Maybe I should have stayed
Can you blame me for all the doubting?
Maybe I should have stayed
And maybe then we would've said

But the worst part is
The worst part is
That the best part ends
Track Name: When You Wake Up Wishing You Hadn't Woken Up
Woke up weird today
Feeling heavier than when I fell asleep
I'm thinking about everything
I'm too scared to say it out loud anyways

I tried explaining
The other night when our only friends came
I think I might've said too much
Just wondering if anyone feels the same

You can't tell but
I'm a waste of a body
Dead from all the crying
And I won't feel it when you touch me
You can't tell but
I'm a waste of a body
But I'll keep trying

Am I really even wanted?
Am I really even wanted?

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